2) Why?
Confused ?, to long story to tell and nobody cares...
Missing people ?: The ones I love, is a long time ago I've seen them

3) Give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.
Hmm... xD

4) Do you like yourself?
Noo.. I'm to.. Yeah :(

5) What do you like to do in your free time?
Loving to be with friends (and family sometimes), else my computer and music ! :D

6) Do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to[right now, from that place, are you confident enough ||not in future]?
Nope...

7) Do you think fighting make any sense?
Well no...

8) Was last question clever?
Hmm, yeah ;)

9) Which places you'd like to visit?
The usa and uk :D

10) Honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend? why?
My twin <33, she means the world to me ..
Else all my top 10 friend list

11) What's your mobile phone?
Sony Ericson: W580i grey ... I looove it ! :D

12) Would you like to have (new) one?
Nope I love this one xD..

13) Do you like to:
To feel happines.. There haven't been much lately ..

14) Write poems?
Lol, hahaha.. I can't write one, I suck ;)

15) Eat?
You can't live without food..
It's strange that I'm so thin and eating so much ô.Ô

16) English?
I love to the language (:

17) French?
Hmm... Fine language, but it's not me ;)

18) Slovene?
Hmm.. I have never really heard the speech

19) Polish?
Hmm, it's so difficult O.o

20) Sports?
None =)

21) Internet?
Omg can't live without it :$

22) Do you think life gets better or worse day by day?
Hmm, depends my mood

23) Are you nervous or calm person?
Nervous how I act infront of other people, who there isn't my friends.. But else I'm clam (:

24) Is there any message you'd like to tell the world?
TO LOVE PEOPLE CAN BE DIFFICULT, BUT NEVER STOP DOING IT... AND LIVE YOUR LIFE AS YOU WANT IT TO BE, THERE'S NOT A SECOND CHANCE..

25) What's your favourite line in the song?
Nobody knows/Pink - Nobody knows but me, that I sometimes cry

26) The cuttest thing you've ever heard?
Many thing  :$

27) Do you love your parents?
Yeah, but sometimes they drive me crazy..

28) What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life?
Do all that kinda things I will never do, and have this big big party with my friends, so I could tell them each how much I love them.. And get really drunk fall a sleep and die..

29) Do you often think about death?
Yes, maybe to many times =/

30) Is this the last question?
As I can see it is =P

by anula333

The challenge:  List 12 songs that cheer you up.

The rules:  Tag 8 people... then those people should tag 6 more after that.

1: Nine in the afternoon - Panic At The Disco

2: Born for this - Paramore

3: It's Not a Fashion Statement, It's a Deathwish - My Chemical Romance

4: Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

5: A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me - Fall Out boy

6: You and Me - Lifehouse

7: Given up - Linkin Park

8: Jesus Of Suburbia - Green Day

9: Broken Hearts Parade - Good Charlotte

10: Over You - Daughtry

11: Cupid's Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes

12: From Yesterday - 30 Seconds To Mars

That was my top 12 today...
Tomorrow I'll come with a new top 12 xD

I have tagged: http://iheartbrendondude.buzznet.com/, http://lolovespanic.buzznet.com/, http://lero4ka.buzznet.com/user/, http://sushi777.buzznet.com/user/, http://panikiatthedisco.buzznet.com/user/, http://tinkerbell177.buzznet.com/user/, http://iska.buzznet.com/, http://alessandra92.buzznet.com/

** on the next day **

I woke up, I was laying at the hospital. I looked around I could see Brendon he was sitting beside me, he was sleeping. I looked at my arm, it was tied in with bandage. I could hear Brendon snore, it was so sweet. He looked like a angel, with his hair in front of his eyes and so peacefully breathing. I kissed him on his forehead, he woke up.” You are a wake” he said when he was stretching himself. “Yes I am”, “How could you do that to me??!”, “Do what?” I asked him, “Cut yours self!”. I blushed and looked away from him. “Look at me!!” he yelled and looked angry at me, I could feel his anger and I started to cry. “I didn’t mean to scare you, but I really care about you!” said Brendon and hugged me tight. We sat on the hospital bed, and hugged each other, and I realized that he loved me, more than any one, I have meet in my life, well I loved him to. He was so carefully and sweet, that he could be a angel. “Are you okay?” he asked me, “Well, I think I am” I whispered in his ear. He kissed my cheek. A doctor walked in, “So miss. Wentz how are you?”, “Well I fine doctor” I answered. “How is the arm?”, “Well it hurts, but I have Brendon to cheer me up” I said and gave him a smile, he smiled back. “Are you her boyfriend?” the doctor asked Brendon, “Ohh…” he looked at me and I nodded to Brendon, “…Yeah she’s my girlfriend” he said and smiled more than I never had seen before. “You look cute together” He doctor said, mean while he wrote in my journal. “Thanks” said Brendon and took my hand. “You can go home tomorrow miss. Wentz” said the doctor, “Thanks” I answered. The doctor went out of the room, Brendon hurried up and lay beside me in the bed under my duvet, and kissed me. “I’ll stay here for tonight, if that’s okay with you?” he asked, “Sure you can!”.

Ryan:

Me and Amber had been at the doctor, I was kinda mad at her, that she could do stuff like that to her self. The doctor had said that she should find a psychologist if it happened again, because it was close this time. “ If I didn’t drove you to the doctor you could be dead Amber!!, don’t do stuff like that” I said, “Ryan, I’m such a fool, I don’t deserve to live”. I took my hand on her cheek, “How can you say stuff like that, about you self?!, you are the star in my life!”. She looked with her brown eyes in mine, “Do you mean that Ryan?”, “Sure I do, if I didn’t I wouldn’t tell you it”. I kissed her. “She looked down, well you have always been there for me, you are so sweet that I can’t describe it” she said and hugged me tight. “I’ll always be here for you Amber!”.

“I have something to ask you about?” I said, “What’s it?”, “Pete and Sam has invited us to a party on Saturday, about 2 days, will you go with me?”, “Well…Okay I will”, “Great!” I said and looked at her. “I have to go now, Shotgun needs his afternoon walk with me, I’ll come and get you on Saturday 6 pm, okay?”, “That’s okay Ryan”. We kissed and I leaved her, I could wait to Saturday to be with her again.

~*~Saturday~*~

I drove over to Ambers flat, I knocked at her door. And she opened, then I saw an angel, it was Amber she was in a white dress with silver stripes, she was so hot!. “Amber is that you?”, “Yeah she said and blushed, “You are so beautiful!”, “Thanks”. I took her hand and we went to the car to drive over to Pete. We got to Pete’s place, “Hey buddy!” yelled Pete and came and hugged me, “Hey Amber” he also yelled and hugged her. “How are you guys?, just take some beers and do whatever you guys want to do” said Pete. “Well we been good” said Amber and took my arm. “Good, I have to go, Sam wants me to help her in kitchen, so c ya”. Amber and me sat us sown in a couch in the living room, there where many people to the party. A lest 30 people, “Do you know any of theses people here?” asked Amber me, “No I don’t….Well there’s someone we know!”, “Where Ryan?”, “At the front door, it’s Brendon and Kira”, “Let me get away from here!!” whispered Amber in my ear. “No!, let us just sit here” I whispered back.  “Look who’s here” yelled Pete, my lovely sister and Brendon, come in and sit down”.

Brendon:

Me and Kira came in, there was many people to the party. We couldn’t see the end of the room, I looked around in the room. And went in to the living room, then I saw that I didn’t expected it was Amber and Ryan, there was sitting in the couch, Amber with Ryan’s arm around her. “Well do you think Sam needs some help in the kitchen?, lets us go out there”, “why, what?” Kira said, I pushed her out there, “Okay, okay, I didn’t thought that you would help in the kitchen voluntarily” she said and laughed. She didn’t see Amber and Ryan fortunately. We went to the kitchen. “Hey Amber and Brendon” said Sam, “Can we help you with anything hun?” asked Kira , “Not right now, Amber has helped me a little, so I don’t need any help, but thanks”, “Amber?!” Kira yelled. I grabbed her, I could feel that she was confused and angry at the same time. “Yeah Amber haven’t you guys meet yet?” said Sam glad. “No!”. “Brendon can’t we leave, I don’t feel well?!, “Kira, we can’t go now, lets stay for some time” I said and kissed her neck. “Brendon!”, “No Amber!”.  Then we went into the dinner room, where we should eat. And of course should me ,Kira, Amber and Ryan sit in the same end of the table. We didn’t say much in the start of the dinner, but in the end, we talked like we haven’t been enemies. I think it was all that alcohol who did it. But it was nice to talk with Amber, Ryan again, and Kira together. We decided to forgive each other for all that have happened between us. Now we were friends again. It was beginning to be late, but we decided to sleep all together over at me and Kira flat. Me and Kira should sleep in our bedroom, and Amber and Ryan in the room beside ours. We went to bed.

Kira:

10: Cupid’s chokehold.....Gym Class Heroes

9: Last train home.....Lostprophets

8: Boulevard of broken dreams.....Green Day

7: House of cards.....Madina Lake

6: Attack...30  Seconds To Mars

5: In the end...Linkin Park

4: I’m not okay.....My Chemical Romance

3: Your Guardian Angel...Red Jumping Apparatus

2: Fall Out Boys songs....

1: Panic! At The Disco songs...

I have tagged: lovelybrenny,lolovespanic,iska and anula333

“How could you do that to me Kira?!, I loved you as I never loved a girl before, how could you!?” Ryan said sad meanwhile he was leaving the room, “Ryan no, don’t go!, I LOVE you!!, I didn’t mean to hurt you, I love you!!” I yelled meanwhile I cried my heart out.  Ryan didn’t even look back.

~end of recap~

Ryan

I locked my room and down to the floor. I throw everything in my room, even that’s Kira’s photo. I was thinking for a while. What does she do??? Does Kira love me no more? I grabbed my black hoodie and go outta the room. I saw that Kira sit on the couch as she looking down to the floor. I shut the door so she looking at me with her wet eyes. I don’t give her any attention. Suddenly, she hugs me, “Ryan, I don’t mean to hurt you… I love you, Ryan…” she said quietly and let me go. I walk passing her and grabbed the car key. I turn on the engine and went to the beach.

I sit down on the sand and playing my fingers. But then a couple minutes later, I feel the rain drops on my skin. And the rain drops became quickly. I ran into the car, “I need someone to talk…” I said to myself. So, I decide to go to Amber’s flat. Its 10pm now… I’m not sure if she going to open the door for me. But I just drive it to her flat. When I arrived, it was still rain. I aim to the door and put my forefinger on the door bell. Shall I push it? I quickly put my hands into my pockets. I shouldn’t be here… I’m just a troublemaker for Amber… I don’t wanna bothering her… I just stand in front of the door. I sigh and feel the rain drops on me. Suddenly, the door’s open. Amber was standing in front of me. She wears big black coat and an umbrella on her hand. I think she want to go somewhere. “Ryan?” she said quietly, “Amber… I’m sorry… I don’t want to bother you… I shouldn’t be here… See you soon…” I replied as I walking away from her. “No… Ryan… I need someone to talk…” she said as she holding my hand. “Okay then… But, sorry before that I’m bothering you…” , “Ur not! Come in!” she smiled to me.

“Here… U are wet… Come on, get dressed!” she said as she gave me a black shirt. “Thanks!” I took the shirt on my hand and aim to the bathroom… I came out for about 3 minutes later. Amber already sat on the table in the kitchen. She drinks a cup of hot chocolate. She throws her coat on the floor. “Come here… U need to drink this!” she said happily. “Okay then!” I nodded and walking closer to her. She gave me a cup of hot chocolate. “Hows Kira?” she asked as she drink her chocolate, “Don’t know… She cheatin’ on me, I guess…” I said quietly. “Ryan, what you talking about?” , “U know… Brendon kiss her…” I lift up my shoulders. “Ur joking, right? Maybe u are too tired or sumthin’… They wouldn’t!” she yelled, “They are kissing, Amber! I saw it with my own fuckin eyes! You still not believe me?” I yelled back, “Okay, okay! I believe you, Ryan… I believe you…” she said quietly, “I’m sorry Amber… I’m sorry that I was yelling at u…” I said as I holding her hands.

Kira

“Kira, I don’t mean to…” Brendon said quietly, “No, Brend! It’s all my fault… Don’t care about me…” I replied, “Don’t care about u??? I have to…” , “Come on, Brend! Let’s go to find him…” I said as I grabbed my hoodie. “But…. But…” , “Shut up, Brend! Let’s gooo!!!!” I yelled.

Brend drive the car. “So, where’s Ryan?” he asked, “Don’t know… But, I think… He’s in Amber’s flat…” I said certainly, “Okay then…” he replied and drives the car.

We arrived at Amber’s house for about 30 minutes later. Me and Brendon aim to the door. “I think it’s locked…” Brendon said quietly, “Nahh… Try it!” I replied. Brendon open the door quietly… “It’s unlocked!” Brendon lift up his eyebrows. “Slow down!” I said quietly. He nodded. We’re walking in slowly.

Then, I saw Amber and Ryan were kissing on the couch. “Ryan!?” I said as down to the floor and cry a loud. They stop kissing and look back at me. “Kira?” Amber said quietly, “Amber?” Brendon said, “Brendon?” Ryan yelled. (lol) “What are u doin, Amber?” Brendon yelled. Amber didn’t say anything. She’s walking closer to me and down to the floor. “Kira… We don’t mean to…” , “Shut up! Enough …” I said. Brendon pulls me to get up. “Thanks Brend…” I smiled to Brend. “So…, this is the reason why you go from the flat?” Brendon yelled to Ryan, “What’s ur problem, dude? U cheating on her?” Ryan said as he drags Amber in front of Brendon. “It’s about u and me, okay?” Brend yelled louder as he push Amber away until Amber fell down to the floor. “See what u have done? Amber and Kira get hurt!” Brendon yelled, “Me? Isn’t it because you?” Ryan yelled louder. They got into a fight. I try to stop ‘em, but it doesn’t work. “STOP YOU GUYS!” I said as I crying a loud. “Come on Kira, let’s go outta here…” Brendon said as he put his hands on my shoulders. We walk outta the flat.

Amber

“Are you okay, Amber?” Ryan said as he pulls me to get up. “Yeh, I’m fine…” I replied. I ran into the bathroom and locked it. I cry a loud… I drop all of my tears. I down to the floor and hitting myself to the wall. “Are you okay, Amber?” Ryan yelled as he knocks the door. “Yeh, I’m okay… Don’t care bout me…” I replied and wipe my tears. I stand up and see my self on the mirror. I hit it until my hand all bleeding. “Amber!!! Open the door, please!” Ryan yelled louder… “I told u! Don’t care about me!” I screamed.

But, Ryan hit the door, and it was opened. “What are u doing? Ur hand are bleeding!” he yelled as he holding my hand. Suddenly, I fell to the floor and don’t remember at all.

Kira

I was crying all the time. Brendon worried about me, “I will not let you get hurt just because him…” Brendon said quietly, “U don’t have to…” I replied and aim to the kitchen. I grabbed the knife and ran into the bathroom. I saw myself in the mirror, broken hearted… I start put the knife on my wrist and cut my self slowly. It’s so fucking hurts! My blood drops onto the floor. I feel really weak, and I was fallen to the floor. The knife was drop beside me. “Thanks everybody…” I said to my self slowly.

I heard that Brendon yelling at me, “KIRA! KIRA! OPEN UR EYES!”

10: Jon Walker (From Panic! At The Disco,he playes bass)

9: Joel Madden (From Good Charlotte,he's the lead singer)

8: Mickey Way (From My Chemical Roamce, he playes guitar and bass)

7: Axel Evans (I think he's a model...But he's HOT!)

6: Frank Lero (From My Chemical Romance,he playes guitar)

5: Spencer Smith (From Panic! At The Disco,he playes drummes)

4: Johnny Knoxville (From Jack ass)

3: Pete Wentz (From Fall Out Boy,he playes bass)

2: Ryan Ross (From Panic! At The Disco,he playes guitar)

1: Brendon Urie (From Panic! At The Disco,he's the lead singer)

Tagg: lovelybrenny,lolovespanic,onlyliars,panicismylife and anula333

I'm tagged by: Marikaa,patricko,lisaxxxx

10: The Fast and the Furious

9: Rush Hour

8: X-Men

7: Back to the future

6: The school of rock

5: American Pie

4: Jackass

3: Harry Potter

2: The O.C (Orange county)

1: Pirates of the caribean!

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